Dear Nanny,
It's been a while, over a week. I've thought about you every day. You are always on my mind. I wish more than anything that I could talk to you. I miss you.
It has been a rough week. I've needed you more than ever. Between rain/thunderstorm to life storms, I feel like I'm barely standing on my own right now. Everything just seems so out of reach without you here to cheer me on, to encourage me, and to tell me like it is. I wish I could pick up the phone and call you, just to hear you say, "I've been thinking about you" one more time.
I knew long ago that the day that you passed would be one of the hardest losses for me. But, I didn't imagine you being my first major loss in my life nor did I think it would happen when I was 25. You know I would keep you here until I was at least 40. God had other plans. You had finished planting lessons in all of us that we would carry on with us. Although we still need you to fill in the gaps, Heaven needed you more.
I can rest knowing you are with your parents again. You are watching over us. You keep me safe when I drive, even from all the way up there.
I'm going to be okay. I just wish you were here in person and not just a feeling. I am thankful because this world can't hurt you anymore. You are healthy again and made brand new.
I love you. I'm going to continue to make you proud.
Until Next Time,
Em