Dear Nanny,
I know you are still with us every day. I don't doubt for a second that you are watching over us all the time. Some people don't believe that, but if that wasn't the case then why are there holes in the floor of Heaven? Seems crazy if it isn't meant to have a peek at Earth every now and then. (I think you'd laugh at that line, haha!).
I'm serious. When someone (I won't name names) said that notion to me around the first month of your passing, I wanted to scream. How could they say that to me while I was grieving? It was hard enough losing my best friend of 25 years, but hearing that packed the pain on good. After that, I didn't look at that person the same. I respected their beliefs but I wasn't very happy with how they delivered that info (It was in front of a group setting like how rude!).
I say all that to say, I know you are looking down on me all the time. You are cheering me on from your seat in Heaven. I hope you smiled real big when you got to see your sister again this weekend. We miss you both, but now our family has so many angels. That I can Praise God for! I know He is keeping y'all safe.
Yeah, sometimes what that person said still boils my skin, bad. What can I say, I'm your granddaughter through and through, Nanny. I am just like you in so many ways, and I love every reminder of you that I get.
Do you remember the angel ornaments you gave to Momma one year for Jess and me? Momma found mine this weekend and gave it to me. She is actually talking about you more and I love it. I went home that day with a piece of you - I put my angel on the front of my Christmas Tree (my first big tree). Now, I have you right there with me - always.
But still...Christmas won't be the same without you. I miss you so much. I love you so much. I am still glad you are no longer in pain.
I'll have a blue Christmas without you
I'll be so blue just thinking about you
Decorations of red on a green Christmas tree
Won't be the same dear, if you're not here with me
- Blue Christmas | Elvis Presley
Until Next Time,
Em